Never Grow up.

Arthritis / Disney / General


With the Big 30th fast approaching I marked it with a very suitable very grown up tattoo. Now I know tattoos aren’t everyone’s cup of tea but I love them.

I got my first tattoo when I was 18, paw prints on my shoulder. Its not a tattoo I regret although I will soon give it a little bit of an update. It took me 11 years before I got my next tattoo when I got two together on each wrist. One which is my version of infinity and beyond for Eli and one that is the mental health/suicide prevention semi colon with a Disney twist. They aren’t to everyone’s taste but I love them and I also love that I can see them everyday.

Today I got my longed for Peter pan tattoo. I have wanted this for years, I have specifically been planning it for months and today I got to have that tattoo put on my leg. It was a thought out planned decision and one I will never regret.

Peter pan is special to me, I loved the film as a kid I watched it a lot, my granddad used to sign our cards with a hook for captain hook. I loved seeing the peter pan statue in Hyde park when I visited London. When I got older I loved the film hook, I still watch that all the time and I love the message behind Peter pan. We are never told old for an adventure, we have to grow old but we don’t have to grow up. Its a film full of memories but also full of what I always want my life for me and my kids to be. Full of magic and fun.

Today I went to Crooked Mile in Holywood, the super talented Stefan did my tattoo and did my other two smaller tattoos this year too. Stefan was very understanding that the arthritis in my knee would mean I would need to move my leg quite a bit over the almost 4 hours it took to do the tattoo. Stefan’s attention to detail and love of his job is second to none. This is also true of Geoff, Connor and Ryan who also work there. Id be lying if I said it didn’t hurt, I can hand on heart say my smaller ones didn’t hurt at all but this one stung quite a bit. Its not an unbearable pain but it is a nippy annoying kinda pain, it 100% wont put me off getting another one and the next one or two or three are already being planned. I can not recommend this place highly enough, I tried one place before these guys for an infinity tattoo and they literally laughed me out of the place and where really mean, from someone not so full of confidence who took a lot of effort just to ask that was a pretty horrible experience. These guys at Crooked Mile are the opposite they are are friendly, hilarious and crazy talented. They also make a fab cup of tea!


I don’t enjoy the pain, I don’t think that it masks my arthritis pain, in fact as we speak my knee is agony because iv sat for so long today dispite moving and doing all I could to keep it from hurting. I am so used to arthritis pain and its increasing all the time so at least with tattoo pain there is something pretty at the end as a result.

Growing up I was never the prettiest kid in the playground. From age 11 I have had terrible skin that has never totally settled and actually got worse when I had kids and reacts a lot to my medication. I was picked on and called names (aren’t teenage boys just horrible?). It wasn’t something that really bothered me, I probably had a bit of an attitude to go with it when I was a teenager but I never cried myself to sleep and I was totally fine with the fact I was never gonna be a super model. In adult life iv never been into clothes ot make up, I’m not a girly girl and I have my group of friends who accept me for who I am.

When I Got my infinity symbol I was so pleased for it but I didn’t realise just how much I would love it. Now when I have my infusion once a month I look at my arm and instead of feeling grumpy that I have a needle pouring poison into my veins, I look at my tattoo and I feel happy, I remember how blessed I am and I feel in control. Sometimes life spirals in all sorts of ways but these little pieces of art represent the awesome things in life. Today when I got home I’m not ashamed to say I put on my new dress and heels iv bought for a birthday trip and I LOVED how it looked with my tattoo, for quite possibly the first time in my life I felt like I looked awesome,  I don’t care if no1 else thought it, though I did send a pic to a few friends I was so happy, my tattoo was still wrapped up and a bit red and swollen but even with that its so amazing. See these tattoos show the real me, the bits of me that I love that nobody can see, the personality the quirky, the completely random and I love that. I love the confidence and fun that has already come from these tattoos.


They aren’t for everyone and I would never say to anyone else do or don’t get one because its completely personal and part of your own journey but for me this is so much more than a Disney drawing its a memory, its a statement, Its me.


This is just decorating the cocoon till I get my butterfly wings!


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